PANDEMIC DIARY

ON THIS DAY
November 25, 2020

It has been a bit of a dark time for me. I did not recognize immediately its depth of physical penetration and its generalized affect. I was not so much depressed as befuddled and bewildered. My thinking clouded, my mind and body sluggish. A diffuse, unidentifiable fatigue. A lethargy of will. Like I wanted out. But, out of what? I’m reminded of my nine or ten year old self who didn’t want to go to school, so I would place the tip of my household thermometer on a light bulb and had to be clever enough to not allow it to reach a temperature in excess of 108F. And, now, even when there is no need to cover up, no need to falsify, I still feel the need to explain myself. Or, maybe I don’t. Maybe you feel the same??? Four years has simply been enough. More than enough.

Just this morning, Adele said to me over coffee that she hadn’t felt this light and clear-headed for some time. Whew! In that moment I felt self-justified. Seen, even if it was seen by my own inner gazing. The recent election ascertainment has lifted me. Bearing witness to a stage of real public servants, intelligent and articulate people, who come with professional provenance and leadership recognition and years and years of experience, their appearance alone instilled in me a hope for our future despite all the challenges ahead.

And, what an appropriate time for this to occur. Tomorrow being Thanksgiving. I am reminded of all that I am grateful for. And, to you all I say Happy Thanksgiving. Have a most rewarding day filled with love and laughter and good food.